Tuesday, January 01, 2008

A letter filled with teenage angst
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by MEL-.

Smoking weed and taking ice
Consuming ecstasy and living this life
Which is as dead as the corpse in the grave
By the way,
I wrote a suicide note
And left it on that dark, accursed table
Saying "I'm sorry"

Just chillin' out with friends by the sidewalk
Damn my mum and my dad
Those old fellows,
way past the expiry date
They do not understand how I feel
There is so much pain within me
I need to cut and heal
Live and let live, so they say
Let the wounds open up
And swallow me deep

Oh wait, I'm not like them
I don't take drugs, and I don't smoke
I'd never steal, never commit a crime
But life is still such a bitch
Why must everyone go against me?
Now I feel like the whole world hates me
Nobody loves me
Nobody wants me
I'd be better off on my own

Punk is cool, but emo is cooler
Hiphop is the 'in' thing, but rock is the deal
I'm in love, but my heart is broken
I need to pour it all out, I need to scream and shout
Listen to me, all of you out there
You just don't hear me out
I need to feel that I belong somewhere
For I'm nothing but a lost and abandoned kid
You don't understand

Here I tell it like it is
My confessions, I give to you
You don't understand how afraid and frightened I feel
In this black hole, this oasis, this tunnel that never ends
I've lost my faith
More so in you
So I'll write this letter
And tell you goodbye
And I'd thank you for all you've done for me
Now I need to go my own way.

These negative thoughts are killing me slowly
each and every day of my life
i'm drowning in my apathy and pathetic sadistic self
i'm losing it
throwing this heart away
So I need to go my own way.

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